Phew.

Well those were a few rough days. I'm feeling as though I can unlock the door of my little detox room and let myself out. I'm no longer insane. I read back at some of the things I've written over the past week, and think Oh My Lord. I was maybe just a little bit demented.

I feel especially that my husband and I are reaching new levels of honesty. We both know separation is on the table, but don't feel we're there yet.

My emotional state is much calmer, less frantic and panicked..

I also have faith that I will have good, mind-rollicking sex again.

I am a little wary of falling back into that half-asleep state of the past few years. Before I was aware that there was a lot I was missing for myself. I really don't want to be complacent. I want to remember that I want more.