Morning Rant
Have another post in mind but it will wait until more time, maybe this afternoon.
Last night I told Husband that I really needed to sleep, and took something to knock me out. If the boy fusses, I said, he's on duty. I conked out until about 1:30 when the boy's yelling (he's been sick) woke me from a perfect sleep. I then woke up Husband, who was no use. The boy was fully awake by then and wanted only me. So I spent an hour soothing him, medicine, etc etc, until I could finally go to sleep.
Woke up angry and tired, to a day I was already dreading. Then bad news from a friend about her family.
Really f'ing sick of this life and want it to change. Or at least, to get away from these crazy people for a little while! More later.
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Sorry to hear your day started as such crap. Hopefully it'll get better.
BTW, I posted yesterday and this morning as TryingHardToKeepItHard. I decided it was time to create a new Blogger persona so I can start delurking more and maybe even start blogging some of my own thoughts. So this is me now, same as the long-winded guy yesterday.
So I've debated for a bit about whether to tell you this, but I thought it might help fix your current funk. I've been obsessing a bit about you since the other day, not in a creepy stalker way, but in a wow-she's-really-making-me-want-her way. From what you'd written, I thought knowing that might make me feel good.
And it's also helping to realize something about myself, namely that I have a very obsessive side. This is bringing back some feelings and sensations I had back during a couple of old relationships, both of which started online and involved several months of obsessive writing and waiting for replies. The first ended up as a great couple of weeks of unbridled sexual exploration, and the second ended up as my marriage (9 years together and counting!).
Point is, as I'm trying to really explore and understand myself this year, it's interesting to me to feel those sensations all over again. I think one of the keys for me will be to transfer some of that obsessiveness to my wife, and it's actually already starting to happen. I've found myself really intensely seeking sex lately, with varying levels of success, but I think the renewed focus is a good thing for us.
Anyway, I suppose I could have just made this my first post on my own blog, but this way at least I know someone will read it. :)
Oh, and yes, I usually am so long-winded. I just type very fast, and I always seem to have a lot to say. Plus I know I like getting long comments on my blog, so I assume everyone else does too. But once in a while, I'll try to be brief and witty. Quickies have their place too.
J: I've found blogging to be both cathartic and clarifying. I hope it will be the same for you. Glad to hear the energy for your wife is still high. Indifference is the real enemy! Thanks for the warm fuzzies. Comments are always welcome. You could just paste this as your first post, ya know.
Wish I could assist somehow, truly feel compelled to help you out in some way, because your fundamental niceness really does shine through, despite the adverse circumstances in which you find yourself. Hoping things turn in the right direction, and rooting for you here!
Thanks Tommy. U R Cool.
Wrygirl,
I've been reading your posts for a while and you're definitely on my "A" list of bloggers (and commenters on other blogs.)
Getting through a day like this, you just need to think that sick children and bad news from friends are just a fact of life that you have no control over. It's not your fault and you just have to live with what you have. A sleepy husband who doesn't want to help the kids is tougher to deal with. Taking cold medicine just as a sleeping aid...well, I'm not sure I would have done that myself.
Anyway, keep smiling. At least the mirror will smile back at you and maybe someone else will too.
Trunks Up!
E.8.: Oh the optimistic resolve, it does crumble, though.
I was feeling coldy, though. I swear! If I was going to self-medicate, Vicodin all the way!
Thanks for the vote of confidence.
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